Wow, hello 2018! Nice to meet you, I have high expectations but no pressure. Todays post will be all about what I’ll be focusing on for 2018. I was going to title this post “my 2018 goals” but this coming year I want to put more emphasis on focusing my energy into different areas, rather than working towards specific goals. I’ve realised that even though I ticked off most of the goals I set at the beginning of 2017, I didn’t really feel much sense of achievement. I figured that setting new focuses for 2018 will be more beneficial for what I want to achieve this year. There are four things that I’ll be focusing on in 2018, keep reading to find out what they are.
My mental health
Oh my, what an utterly sh*t year 2017 was for the ol’ mental health. In the second half of 2017, my state of mind took a massive nose dive and I spent the majority of it feeling like crap. If you are new around here, I have severe depression and anxiety, and in November, I was diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder. This new diagnosis kinda hit me like a tonne of bricks. Although it makes total sense and explains a lot of my struggles, I almost feel like it’s another weight bearing me down and I really want to get a hold of that this year. I have been seeing my therapist who has been helping me unlock the reasoning behind my OCD and helping me understand how to control behaviours but man it’s tough. I feel like there is a battle going on in my head 24/7 and the bad guys just got a new team mate. I’ll do a more detailed post of this later this month but that’s where I’m at for now.
Becoming at peace with the world
I’ll always remember my university economics lecturer telling me that she struggles to wake up in the morning because the weight of the world bears so heavily on her shoulders sometimes. I feel like this too. I take on a lot of negative energy around me and can’t help but get dragged down by the bad things that happen in the world. A focus for 2018 is to really try to take the good with the bad and come to terms with what I can’t change in the world.
Meeting new people
Hey, social anxiety, wanna go talk to those people over there? Didn’t think so. I really want to meet new people this year. I’ve gotten way too comfortable in my bubble of introversion that my friend group doesn’t really expand pass my best friends. But I think it’s good to extend friendships beyond those that have known you most of your life. This will be a struggle as I do suffer from social anxiety. I get super nervous that people are gonna think I’m weird or not wanna hang out with me. I think I just need to forget about that and get on with it.
Exploring new hobbies
I would say I’m someone with quite a few hobbies but I really wanna get into more this year. I’m hoping to read a book a month this year. This might not seem like a lot but 12 books in one year seems pretty daunting to me. I also want to start looking at exercise as a hobby, something to enjoy – rather than dreading it and treating it as a chore.
What will you be focusing on in 2018? Thanks so much for reading and happy new year!
Love, Lyd x